Kimmie....haahaa

I know I've already posted today... it's my blog and I'll do as I wish with.... I'm just here drinking a beer... yeah your jealous... It gets better.... 2 kids are gone with friends... 2 are sleeping.... this is lovely.....

Anyway, I was chatting with Kimmie tonight... I can't believe the things that she remembers... haha God we were crazy stupid when we we just girls..... My hell we have some stories..... I hope my girls don't hear about them until they are 40..... What the hell were we thinking back then.... hahaha Didn't our parents teach us about stranger danger...hahaha I dont think that we could count the boys that we have meet over the years.... but we definitely have our favorites....hahaha Thor was by far one of the funniest.... So amazed by Angels boobies..... But yeah they are HUGE!!! And Thor's cute friend Curt... Meow! And super model Rob....haha Fun fun boys.... But I think Dave from New Mexico totally takes the cake in my book.....hahaha Hello!!! Freaking cute! I wonder what ever happened to these boys.... Hmm

I miss my Kimmie... my blue eyed girl.... Remember that night I got kidnapped by that creepy John guy :::::shivers::::: Yuck... And Jeremy was mad mad Mad that we didn't stay home that night after he took us to my house.....hahaha I dont know which is worse... Pissing off your dad or a Parriott....hahaha He was ready to beat that John's ass.....haha He so deserved it though.... Remember spark in the dark life savers.... I wonder if they still do it?? Our nasty squashed meatball at work... haha AND YOU!!!! reminding me of freaking Greg Nelson.... I havent that of him for a long time..... yuck..... Remember when I threw that pizza sauce at him??? haha Freaking jackass..... I have selective memory for a reason.....hahaa Holy shit....we had good some good times... You and our legs that went up to here!!!! And your midget friend that hits you right about your boobs.... haha What was that ice cream called that we always got..... Mmmmm ice cream...

Remember that older guy that one Jeep Safari..... He was friends with the dude I bummed to Bob with.... What the hell did he say to me that night??? And then we saw him again a few months back.... He was creepy too..... And of course Buck.... Laaaaaanie Swaney... I really hated it when you called me that..... haha I sure miss him... I'd wish he re-open his myspace acct... You need to open one sweetness....

Anywho, I think I'm going to go dig out my yearbooks...hahaha your in trouble now.... I think I remember someone quoting a Bon Jovi song when she wrote in my book.... hahaha And possibly Richard Marx ::::: GASP:::: You love me... don't deny it....

Love your green eyed girl... complete with a dimple....

Freaky Friday.....

So I love this blog.... I'm funny.... ha
Anyway, my tiny lil Chloe Buggy got hurt today at school... Poor lil thing.... She only weighs 65 pounds at 11 years old.. Anyway, she basically got tackled playing some game at school..... She wasn't able to breath very well, so I took her to the ER...She's alright (we think)... Kent jsut wants me to keep an eye ao her for the next day... Sad that I'm on a first name basis with the local ER Doc....Thanks to Shailee Jane and her many trips to the ER......haha
She was starving by the time we got out of the ER.... She wanted some chicken from Walmarts deli.... I don't know where she puts it... but the little fart eat a huge chicken breast... mashed potatoes and a bag of Skittles....haha Now she is chilling on the couch watching the much dreaded Sponge Bob.... yuck..... And she has decided that she doesn't want to play football next year... I've tried to talk her out of it.... I guess that she just needed a lil more comvincing.... Score one for mom....hahaha

So Eric told me this morning that his schedule isn't changing.. Yay me.... I still won't have a date on New Year's... haha but I won't have to wait longer to see his cuteness..... ::::sighs::::
Anywho, I'm going to go pick up my babies....
Toodles...

Misery LOVES company

Hmmm yeah... no I don't think so...


A little back ground... I have this friend....Who has basically been shit on her whole life by men.... her life has been one negative confict after another.... Honestly I think that she thrives on being the victim... Nothing EVER good happens to her.... Hmmmm is that really so???? She has a beautiful daughter, that is really good kid..... She has a new home that she has lived in since May... pretty decent car..... So yeah.... I'm thinking that her life isn't that bad, besides the man she decides to be with......


Let's call her Sally.... so I don't have keep typing she.... Sally lived with a man after only knowing him for only one month..... He lived there for 2 weeks...... Yeah gang 2 weeks... After "Fred" left she had a "nervous Breakdown".... I say my ass..... 2 Weeks! It has taken her months to get over this asshole..... Not only has she made my life hell over this breakup..... but other mutual friends.... I have done nothing but try to be a good friend to her and be there for her.... but she is just impossible.... I have wasted energy on ths girl trying to help her see the positive side of everything..... I'm just like that.....


You know... life hasn't been fair to any of us.... I lost my momma when I was only 11..... My first baby was a still born.... Not fair at all.... but I took a bad sitution and tried to make it positive to help me with the fact that my baby was going to be very sick and eventually die.... So we made arrangements to bury my baby with my mom.... I looked at it as though I was giving my mom and grandbaby.... So... yeah I think that we all can say that our lives have not gone according to OUR plan.... These 2 thngs in my life were not something I was able to choose... But I choose to not let it destroy me....





Soooo now this brings me to what has finally broken the straw on the camels back.... I have met this guy... yeah you know who you are.... Anywho, I'm excited over him..... maybe a little too excited.. I'll admitted it...hahahaha Even though we have just barely met in person I have been talking to him for freaking ever... So, it's new, but it isn't.... Well... hmm I've just decided that I can't tell Sally anything about my life and she will always find a way to rain on my parade.... Who the fuck does she think she is? How dare you compare my life to your fucked up life.... I know that some of the guys I have dated haven't been the best choice for me.... God knows that is true.... But if you don't take a chance at something that makes you happy right now then you'll never find happiness.... If you dont learn from the mistakes in your life, you'll always make the same mistake.... If you don't make mistakes and learn and grow from them, how will you ever know what you want in your life.... How dare Sally bring me down, simply cause she is miserable and jealous.... and how dare ME to let her.... So this is what started this... Eric works for 21 days in Scotland then he is home for 21 or so days.... He told me yesterday that he might have to work through Christmas and new Years..... Not the best news I have heard, but that's ok.... I'll survive...

I happen to tell Sally this and.... Well here is the email.....



It's backwards... I ain't changing it start at the bottom and go up....haha



Sally: That does suck. Maybe this won’t work with him with his schedule the way it is. I hate to say that cause I know your feelings for him, but man he’s so far away.




Me: I just don’t want to wait that long to see eric


Sally: About the same. I’m ready to go home. Howcome you are?



Me: I’m annoyed… you?


Sally: HOws it goin over there?



That's just part of it.... She's been ugly about it since I met Eric.... Nice fucking friend eh?

Its not like I rub it in her face that I met this real great guy.... Ugh.... I dont' know.... I know that none of this makes sense... but I have to get it off my chest... Why can't she just be like my other friends and be sincerely happy for me instead of trying to make me sad... Cause she is fucking negative and can't stand for anyone to be happy and live their life in a positive manner... which I do.... I can not be negative everyday of my life.... By no means is my life always just peachy... But if I always look for the negative in life, what am I teaching my girls.... That life sucks and will always kick you when your down??? Fuck that... I want them to see that yeah sometimes life will throw you a curve ball.... But that is what will make us strong and who we grow to be.... Ugh..Seriously..... I'm just annoyed...How do you tell someone to stop trying to drag you down.... Especially when you've been on such a high.... Why can't she see that when you expect the worst thing to happen to you, that chances are that it will happen... CAUSE you love being the fucking victim , so you can drive people crazy with your fucking sob stories.... get over it girl and start taking credit for your shitty life.... And stop trying to dag me down... I won't let it happen again..... I know who my friends are and apparently it is not you....

Wow

I suck...... I try to keep this updated.... But yeah I suck...



Anywho, yeah Billy is history..... I think that is all you need to know about that.... Plus if I know you, chances are you know the reason why.....



My girls are great.... Well most days.... It's so funny at times, being a mom.... I think that alot of people look at me and feel bad for me that I'm single and have 4 kids... Little do they know myself or my kids.... I love my life and my girls and can't imagine my life any other way... Of course its hard at times.... and I worry all the time... but I know that everything happens for a reason..... I'm just ready to find out what that reason is....haha

Maicee has this cute lil thing that we have to do every morning.....hahaha She loves the song Iron Man from Black Sabbath.... Yeah.. can't tell that she is my kid huh? Anywho, she has to set on my lap every morning in front of the computer and read the lyrics to Iron Man while listening to the song.....hahaha Its tooooo funny.... It's like her lil alarm clock..... haha



Shailee just turned 8.... She wants to be baptized.... Hmmm yeah... a day with John's mom..... I'd have to go to the church drunk....hahaha Fuck that.... I am not going to let that bitch make me feel uncomfortable anywhere.... But I wish that my daddy would come for it...haha

And Riley and Chloe.... Hmmm Riley needs to hurry up turn 18 and move out of the house... And Chloe is just a joy... most days...

And me.. Still working at Mediconnect... Oh the joys.... I'm really starting to miss school.... I really need to get back... finish my degree and quit this dead end job... But who am I kidding.... There is no way I can throw school into my crazy life right now....

I have met someone rather fabulous... but since he now has the link to this blog I wil not elaborate.... at this time anyway...haha

Anywho, I'm at work pissed off... So, I'm out of here...

Toodles...